It’s been sooo long!!!!

Firstly I want to start by apologising, I haven’t found time to write a post in a good few weeks, and I’m truly sorry!

I started back at work, as you will all know, and the first few weeks passed by without me even having time to realise. I’m so pleased to say that I haven’t experienced any signs of fatigue at all, I’ve been tired, but given the state of my life for the past few years, and the amount I am now doing, that’s hardly surprising really. However tired is not fatigued, and that is the main difference I’m clinging onto.

Someone said to me a couple of weeks ago that they were suffering from ‘extreme fatigue’. I was honestly so concerned and went on to ask what the cause was. I won’t give all the details here, but basically they had been out for a long night and had to get up for work in the morning. If you have this feeling, let me tell you something, you are tired! This is not ‘extreme fatigue’, and I had a real struggle on my hands not going into a rant about it, but I didn’t, and I’m proud of that. Please though, don’t use exaggeration when you are talking about how you’re feeling, you don’t know who you are taking to and what their experiences may have been. Living your life and being tired as a result is not ‘extreme fatigue’, and if you believe it is, then you are terribly misinformed!

In other news I have done a few firsts in the past weeks, one of which is swimming. I’m soooo happy, I absolutely love swimming! I’m an Aquarian and water is my happiest place, not being able to swim for the past few years has been awful, I’m happiest when I’m in a swimming pool or the sea.

I’ve also been on holiday to Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 I was anxious about a few things, the travel time and being able to stop regularly enough to sort my bag out. Also the thought of bag changes away from home was a bit anxiety inducing. I have a great routine at home, and am a bit of a lover of regular routine, so the thought of trying to make that work outside of my own home was worrying. Another thing that was playing on my mind was leakages, what if I had a bag leak on holiday, in someone else’s bed linen. I’ve read about it all lot, and let’s face it, if it’s going to happen, it will always happen at the worst possible time, won’t it?

I genuinely have no idea what I was worrying about…

We stopped as many times as we wanted to, and my bag was less of a problem than the overactive bladders we all seem to have!

Bag changing was absolutely fine, I found a new routine!

I have never yet had a leak at home, so why I thought it would happen for the first time whilst I was away, was a real life example of my mind making an absolute mountain out of a mole hill. No I didn’t get a leak, not at night, nor in the swimming pool. Should I have worried, no. Will I worry next time, probably, just not as much 🤣.

I feel like I’ve achieved so much and come so far in the past few weeks. I’m properly proud of myself. I did all of the driving to Scotland and back too, and packed and unpacked at either end, all with nothing more than a ‘I need a coffee’.

I’m twenty weeks post-op today 💪 and it still feels like I’ve been granted a miracle, my life is unrecognisable and I’ll always be forever grateful ❤️